Letting go

Letting go means letting something die. I forget where I read or heard that but it is true. I might have read it in "Love Warrior" by Glennon Doyle Melton. Letting go for me doesn't mean wishful, positive thinking and giving it to God. While giving "it" to God does give me a bit of relief, it does not take the pain away. There is something that needs to be released on a very deep, emotional level in my being. Every time I have truly let go of something it has been excruciatingly painful and has been a difficult period in my life. I go through all stages of grief while letting go. Denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. I have to go through that process and let go and have faith in God's plan and because I am so controlling that is very difficult for me. I try very hard to control my surroundings and that makes letting go of things unpleasant and difficult. I have to let go and trust that it all happened as it was meant to, for whatever reason.