Emotional Sobriety

I've been in recovery since 2013 and emotional sobriety is hard sometimes because I so want to let people know exactly how I feel about them sometimes or lash out, but I know better. As satisfying as that would be, it would set me back. Everything is a habit, including choosing when I am a maniac and when I am kind to everyone (myself included). This doesn’t mean that I am a doormat, no, the tools of recovery have taught me better. I do not lash out and say awful things to people, I calmly and respectfully tell them how I feel. It keeps me on the right path and from going on a shame spiral and most of the times it saves me from having to make amends. Do I want to be right sometimes and have the upper hand when talking? Yes, but what will that cost me and is it worth it? Probably not.